why you keep facing the same lessons ? how astrology reveals the karmic work you cannot avoid

let me tell you something about my life…

I have never been able to escape animals. And I mean that literally. My mother often tells the story of the goat my grandfather had back in the Dominican Republic when I was a toddler. I don’t remember, of course, but according to her, the goat was simply in love with me and would follow me everywhere. It’s been a thing.

I did not choose this the way you choose a favourite colour or a career. This thing chose me. From the time I was a child, it was already decided, and nobody told me. I just kept saying yes and yes and yes until one day I looked around and my entire existence had been reorganised around creatures who needed me. This became excrutiating around my Saturn return. I was burned out. I was leaving a bad relationship, but ofcourse - I could not leave empty handed. I had to take with me the three cats I had acquired during the relationship.

And it’s like everyone, with whom I have a significant bond, also gets dragged into this mess. Do you know the ammount of times I have had to ask for help to feed animals? Sometimes they weren’t even mine, but I could not turn a blind eye. My friends have shown up to help me with animals at completely unreasonable hours. My family members have been pulled into situations they absolutely did not sign up for. My spouse — god bless her — chose me, not fully understanding that choosing me meant choosing all of them too. her plans have shifted. her freedom gets negotiated. her life bends around whatever is happening with the animals and she does it because she loves me but also because honestly at this point she does not have a choice. she entered the agreement. we all did. & vice versa too, there are certain things I simply need to deal with for her, not for me, but for her. Because it’s the evolution path of her soul and I cannot stand in the way of it.

and for years loving animals was something I did with such grace, with such an open heart. Until my senior dog Donuts passed away and it sent me into a spiral. When Donuts died, I realized just how heavy this journey has been. How the love I feel for animals is something that builds me up yes - but it also had a crazy capacity to wreck me completely. I continously found myself asking, could I ever survive such loss again? Will my love for animals kill me?

and then I looked at my birth chart and I almost laughed out loud. Silly me. Ofcourse I’ll get my heartbroken again. Ofcourse it’ll hurt like hell. But a life without animals is simply not in the cards for me in this lifetime.

You see, I have Saturn in my 12th house opposing venus in my 6th and not only that both are applying to PLUTO in the 9th house of spiritual ascension.

There it was. Written in the sky on the day I was born.

Saturn in the 12th house is karma you cannot hide from. It is the assignment that operates beneath the surface of your life quiet, invisible, completely unmovable. You do not get to negotiate with it. You do not get to decide when it is convenient. Luckily Saturn is in its own sign and planets in their own sign are comfortable. But comfort isn’t always a good thing.

Then Venus sits directly opposite it in the 6th house. The house of daily life. Of health. Of routine. Of the creatures we care for. Venus here is love expressed through showing up every single day for something that needs you. Through building your entire existence around devotion. Through finding that the structure of your life your schedule, your finances, your spontaneity, your relationships is permanently shaped by what and who you have chosen to love.

Put these two together in opposition and you get a person whose karmic assignments express themselves through their daily devotion. What I owe from previous lifetimes shows up in how I spend every single ordinary day of this one. The animals were not a coincidence. They were the delivery mechanism. I have Saturn in the 12th which means I am meant to be alone for long periods of time. But I’m never alone. I am without people but never without animals. Life is funny. I am chained to service.

Ironically the only time in my life where I have been without animals was when I was studying in Holland, and mind you I cut my studies short. I went to study abroad when the south node (to let go of) was transiting my first house (identity) - in total I was free from animals exactly 18 months. which is an eclipse cycle. Because I would go to the island 3 months out of the year anyway. Astrology is that precise. When those eclipses were over, I ran right back to Donuts, Cartier and Cafe.

but who had to stay with those animals while I was gone? My mom ofcourse.
Who has never been attached to animals one day in her life. But she learned to love them and care for them - because we are bounded by destiny. It was a burden she carried for me, because we are connected.

Here is the part nobody tells you about carrying a karmic assignment.

You do not carry it alone

The people who choose to love you who choose to be in your life they enter the agreement too. Whether they know it or not. Whether they would have agreed if someone had explained the full terms to them upfront. Its honestly debatable. But they chose. And in choosing you they chose everything you came here to carry.

My friends have held animals with me in the middle of the night. My family has rearranged things for me because of my animals more times than any of us can count.
Omg one time my cousin had to drive me around the neighborehood for hours because Donuts was lost. I later found him with a gang of other dogs near a field close to home.

My spouse has watched her vision of what life would look like shift and bend and reorganise itself completely because she said yes to me and yes to me meant yes to all of this. (Baby I promise we will still go to Asia for three months at some point I just need to make money a lot of money and fly one of Botero’s aunts in to take care of him ok?)

Anyway, I used to carry so much guilt about this.

Until I understood that they did not stumble into my life by accident. Their souls knew. They agreed somewhere before any of us arrived here that they would be part of what I came to do. The people who stay who absorb your karma into the fabric of their own life and do not leave are not victims of your assignments. They are participants in them. They are working something out too.

Love is contractual. That’s why Saturn the planet of karma EXALTS in libra the sign of relationships. It’s double the lifting. It is wild and inconvenient and completely sacred all at the same time.

I am telling you all of this because what I found in my chart exists in yours too.

Your karma looks different from mine. Your assignments arrived wearing a different face. Maybe it is not animals. Maybe it is something else entirely that you have never been able to escape no matter how many times you tried. The thing that keeps finding you. The people around you who got pulled into your mess and somehow stayed anyway.

All of it has a placement. And once you can see it clearly something shifts. The guilt dissolves (I know mine did). The exhaustion of fighting something you were never going to win against dissolves. What is left is the understanding that you were never failing at life. You were doing exactly what you came here to do.

This is the reading I am offering now. A dive into the karmic assignments.The work you came here to do in this lifetime. The patterns you cannot escape and why. The service that keeps multiplying and where it is actually leading you.

understanding it can be liberating.

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